Il est demain.

Good morning sunshine!

Here it is:

Well, well, it’s 10:24 and I have been awake since 7.

If there’s a story behind every story, well, this is it. This one here. The one you’re reading (looking confused at the screen, I might add).

There has been progress:

I have written chapters, I have lost a chapter (yes, I am that stupid sometimes), I have read things and drawn others. The most awesome thing is that I have sorted some stuff in my mind.

Before, it looked like this:

 Now, it looks like this:

See? Slightly better.

Also, I am proud to announce that the first chapter of “Turning to Ashes” has won Third Place in an University Creative Writing contest. I am this –> [–]  close to finishing the first draft.

I have to do it!      I have to do it!

 I have to! I have to! I have to!

Sure, it helps a lot when the browser is closed and there’s no one on Facebook, but I manage… barely.

The bad news?

The exam period is coming soon, I have five days of “vacation”, one day and a half had passed and I haven’t even done one of the scheduled projects.

Because I’m that good at organizing!

And without further ado, I shall leave you to your business and I shall proceed to mine.

Auf wiedersehen!

Late Night Post.-

Hello world.

It’s 1:24 AM.

I am not sleeping and I am not sure what will happen when I do.

But let’s not linger on my personal life.

“The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian”

by Sherman Alexie

First of all, a big thank you to my American teacher for lending it to me.

It was a really funny read. No, it’s not trivial. I’s actually a good book. It won the National Book Award in the United States.

This is not a review, I should say, because my attempt at writing right now is obviously a failure, all the words I say in my head sound like incoherent Gibberish.

I liked Arnold/Junior’s story (yes, I’m talking about the book now), and what I liked the most is that he could see a good part in everything. Even in his best friend Rowdy who hated him, punched him in the face and gave him a concussion. And I loved that he had the courage to go on adventures. He had the courage to climb 50 feet trees and punch a huge dude in the face and study in a school for white kids (he’s an Indian, racism is pretty strong around reservations, from what I’ve read.) And he had the courage to go out with the most popular girl in school! This takes courage, you should see those kids, they are vicious!

And the most impressive of all, he had the courage not to give up when he was down, he swallowed his weakness and stood up and kept fighting until he finally won.

That’s a lesson we should all learn.

By the way, this is my Spring. She says hi. 🙂

That’s it. I should go before I say anything stupid. The level of confusion now exceeds its normal limits, which, in my case, are pretty wide, so, I should go to sleep. See what’s gonna happen tomorrow.

Just for the sake of it, and because I make people confused:

Mood: excited and nervous

Listening to: Ducu Bertzi- Suflet fara chei

Song that is actually playing in my mind: something of  French origins.

Okay, I’m out. Au revoir folks! See you demain!

My NaNoWriMo Update

There are a lot of people being beaten in these scenes. Kind of hard to write in such a good mood. The editing will be horrible work!

Good night people! It’s kind of 4AM now. Time to go to sleep.

Update, 15 February:

I’m getting more and more anxious to the time I finish writing this. I’m one chapter away from the climax.

Update, 16 February

I am so, so tired, I’ve written 1500 words and edited two versions of the same scene. It’s two minutes to midnight and I can barely hold my eyes open.


 

6919 / 30000 words. 23% done!

Having my own NaNoWriMo

Hello!

NaNoWriMo ended (about three months ago-sorry haven’t updated in a while) -and I have won it! But those 50000 words weren’t enough for my story.

School has been crazy: tests, projects, exams, but now it is finally over and I have a week of vacation!

What better time than this to get my novel finished? So I’m gonna have my own NovelWritingMonth, and I have until the 13th of March to write 30000 words, or finish the first draft of the manuscript. Then I have to edit it and have it in a readable form until June, so I can get my NaNoWriMo prize: 5 copies of my book! 😀

Hopefully, I will be posting updates daily. Wish me good luck!

1789 / 30000 words. 6% done!
Novel written in Scrivener

Be a Sublime Fool

There is this site: advicetowriters.com and it’s full of wonderful and useful comments on writing. I found this one the other day and couldn’t help not post it. It’s too beautiful.

To sum it all up, if you want to write, if you want to create, you must be the most sublime fool that God ever turned out and sent rambling.

You must write every single day of your life.

You must read dreadful dumb books and glorious books, and let them wrestle in beautiful fights inside your head, vulgar one moment, brilliant the next.

You must lurk in libraries and climb the stacks like ladders to sniff books like perfumes and wear books like hats upon your crazy heads.

I wish for you a wrestling match with your Creative Muse that will last a lifetime.

I wish craziness and foolishness and madness upon you.

May you live with hysteria, and out of it make fine stories—science fiction or otherwise.

Which finally means, may you be in love every day for the next 20,000 days. And out of that love, remake a world.

RAY BRADBURY

 

I love literature, what can I say… and I hope I can be the sublime fool my novel needs.

Keep your fingers crossed for my November. I’m participating in NaNoWriMo.

On that, more information here.

And it would also mean a lot to me if you checked this other page of mine. Because I paint t-shirts and bags and all kinds of stuff and if you’d like one, just leave me a comment. –> The Beautiful Ones Productions

 

 

 

 

 

3rd of October

  So let’s pretend this is how today looked like.

Because, you know, it totally didn’t, but it’s nice to imagine it did.

Today my second year of college started, right here in my hometown-which sucks. So what a better thing to do today but try to look excited and in the end to really be excited.

How did it start?

I met up with my friends and headed up to school. Only I didn’t have time to think of what would happen when I’d get there, because half the way I had to act as a relationship counselor. I tend to do that in my spare time…

Then I met the crowd that gathered at the entrance. The beginning of the year is the only time you see that many students in the school yard. My eyes shifted and looked for familiar faces, new faces, interesting, cute, handsome.. umm.. familiar faces.

So what happened next? We find out we have two exchange students! It was about time! Hello Turk guy from Turkey and hello blond guy from France! We called dibs on the ones we liked.

Once the solemn opening ceremony ended (cool, didn’t know we had an anthem!) we headed for the mall- because really, what a better thing to do before school starts for real?

We tried on clothes we cannot afford/ would never wear in the real world.

Here’ s the proof:

 

Then we went home like the old ladies we are (our feet and backs hurt from all the walking and the dressing-undressing game).

And that’s my day.

How was yours? Any first days of anything?

On the more-like-me part, I am bipolar. Someone said it to me today and for sure I am!  I’m sure all people are, to an extent. I was bummed out to have to go to school today, because I love vacation. It’s warm and summer and the rains are violent and noisy. And I don’t have homework due three days ago.

But then I see all those freshmen and their shy laughs and my too-happy classmates, and those foreign guys and the teachers who all smile ( why do the teachers smile? wasn’t it better without the lousy students?) and the excitement gets to me.

It is strange how fast all that can disappear, and I hear myself saying :

“I’m scared”.

Because college is harder than I expected. Because I should have prepared for this year and I didn’t. Because there are a lot of new people, and a lot of people I already know and they expect me to rise and shine brighter than the year before.

Why? Why do people have expectations? (Great expectations, yes, I should have read that this summer as well).

Isn’t it easier to just let life flow as it wishes? Sure, you have dreams, you believe that stuff might or might not happen. But people? They have their own rhythm,  they might race into the battle without flinching at first, and then get scared and get defeated. Would you expect them to be your heroes?

Or is it better to place your bets on the person most likely to succeed when another one comes slow and steady from behind and wins the game?

People get scared of many things. For me it’s just the unknown. New people, the ones I have no idea what they hide, or what they might put on for the show, they freak me out.

So I guess my other option is to put on the mask, pretend I am who they want to be, and maybe that’s the way I get to be who I want to be.

And I’m also scared because someone once told me my future. And it’s about to happen.

Now I should get to sleep. Waking up at 6 AM is another downside of school.

Hope I’ll be alive and well tomorrow.

Ah, this begs for a James Blunt song.

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Almost forgot, check out my other page at The Beautiful Ones Productions, because I pain t-shirts and bags and stuff, and if you want one unique personalized piece of clothing and you like what I do, I’m here to hear your wishes!

Be good. Don’t do anything too crazy or too boring.

DIY Birthday Cake!

Hello there!

I had this insanely busy vacation and actually have no idea what I did most of the time. It has been like a hangover after the crazy drunk time that was the second semester.

At the end of the summer was my birthday, though, and that is an even I couldn’t miss. I am now 20 years old. And I do feel older, and so very tired.

On the bright side, which I can barely see now at 11 PM after a day of physiotherapy and other housework, here are the steps of creating my cake.  It was super delicious! Total chocolaty yumm!

So you take one piece of cake that you previously baked and put it in a cake shape.

Then you add a layer of chocolate cream. Pardon me, The Best Chocolate Cream! In which I added Finetti.

And taste the cream a little bit, because, you know, what if it needs more chocolate?

Then put yet another piece of cake.. and so on.

And if little cousin over there hasn’t eaten all Finetti, maybe you could add some on the top layer as well!

Ta-daa! The great result!

It was a very super awesome cake. Too bad we were ten people to eat it, so everyone just had a slice, and I promised myself to make another one when I get home- obviously I didn’t…

Thank you tons, Geta’s mom! She gave me this amazing recipe, and I totally loved it!

So, this is me, blogging from the floor of my room, being all twenty and stuff, and sleepy and tired.

I guess age makes us more shallow, because I don’t have anything smart to say tonight.

Good night!

If I Stay and Where She Went

I just finished reading this first book. I think I’ll give it a 3 out of five. It’s not that I didn’t like it, because, all in all it’s been a good enough book, but it didn’t make me twist of feel anything the characters did. I could feel the hard work the author put into writing this, though, and somehow that is a downside.

What I liked is how the characters were made real. A hippie couple formed a family and even though we don’t read about Mia’s parents much, we know there was a great love story behind it.

There aren’t many things to say about the book, the plot is simple and the author’s intentions are obvious, so no surprises are on the way.

Sure enough, the second book I have by Gayle Forman is Where She Went and it’s the sequel to If I stay I don’t know exactly how much had passed from IIS but it seems interesting for now, even though it starts on the same slow pace.

Unlike the first book, I felt sorry that it ended. The pace was slow at times, perhaps in an attempt to show not tell, but Adam’s point of view was a brilliant idea and extremely pleasant for me to read. I thought at the begging that I’d give this book a 3.5, but I believe it made it into a 4 star.

I have enjoyed it despite some repetitive motifs. But It’s the end that makes the book. And the last 20 pages or so were really good. As was the explanation the author gave for If I Stay.

So, yeah, if you feel depressed, go read If I Stay, then this great sequel, and feel better.

Mockingjay

It is needless to say I don’t usually cry on books or movies. I can count on my fingers the ones that made me weep: Bridge to Terabithia- the movie, because I haven’t got the chance to read the book yet; Anna and the  French Kiss- by Stephanie Perkins, because I love Paris so much and I just couldn’t not react; and  If You Could See Me Now– by Cecelia Ahern, a book that made me sob all night long and every word is imprinted on my brain; and finally, these three books: The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins.

            I wept even from the first book, in the beginning when all the people from District 12 gave Katniss the thankful salute for saving her sister from the reaping. Catching Fire was safer for my eyes, but Mockingjay is such a powerful book. It’s so full of sorrow and real pain. It’s not the physical pain that matters, because Katniss faces it bravely, not even the heart pain, because she knows how to distract herself, but the mind that breaks into tiny pieces that can barely be put back together is the problem. Even though Katniss may not agree to that, she is going mad, her mind is in shreds and she acts sometimes without putting any thought into what she is going to do.

            I usually do my reviews spoiler-free, but I just can’t explain this book (to myself, not to you, you can find your own explanation if you wish) without revealing key details. So if you haven’t read Mockingjay, go now, then come back and read the rest of the review. 🙂

            I was taken back by the easiness with which Suzanne Collins kills her characters. Of course, these are The Hunger Games, only one is allowed to survive, so all others have to die. Basically, the same thing happens in a war, but we, as readers, grew acquainted with the characters, we learned to trust them and found out their weaknesses and the people they love, and we learned to love them, as Katniss did. And then they died, risking their life for the Mockingjay to survive, giving it away, conscious of their actions and their use.

            Suzanne Collins described a war from which no one gets out unharmed. Every single character is wounded, boxed in with no choices, brought to the edge of despair, madness and beyond. Katniss is mad practically the whole third book, and Peeta, ah, poor, darling Peeta who no one can resist loving him. The author figured out the best, if not only way to hurt him and hurt Katniss. I don’t know if any of the deaths were gratuitious. In a war almost every death seems so. What fault had some of the men who worked in the Nut? What harm did Katniss and Gale’s fathers do? And by all means, what did those Capital children do to deserve a slaughter?

            And yet, these are not the reasons I cried. Sure, I was more than surprised to hear about little Prim, not wanting to believe what had happened to her, but it’s only afterward that my eyes really begun to hurt.

            The third part’s name meaning dawned on me when Katniss shot that last arrow of the war. This should have brought her at least relief, or maybe just confusion, but she sunk into despair, and at some point I really thought she would become like one of the morflings: a once glorious victor who couldn’t stand the sight of reality.

            After she goes back home, that’s when the real madness descends. I figured out how these books don’t apply the regular paths of writing: three disasters, character’s inner goal, external goal; having to decide between making the right decision or achieving the initial goal. More than being just another “choose the right thing to do” book, here the character has to decide things of great importance not only for her and the immediately loved ones, but for everyone’s future. The faults and holes of her chosen paths are the ones that drive Katniss mad. Those weeks, months or even years it took her to heal to the point where she could talk to Peeta openly, those are the pages that made me shed those tears. It’s frightening how long it takes the mind to heal, incredible how the author put it down on the paper with this much realism. The claustrophobic feeling seized me in Katniss’ nightmare, all those people shoving ash over her, not being able to move or breathe while death caught you, but not quite took you from the living world.

            Ironic how, in a way, Katniss is exactly like all the other characters in the other books: she was a  normal girl, with a relatively normal life then somehow she got to be the key, the only one who could fight the war of two worlds. The details are as important as the plot itself. So many things happen in one book. In the first one, they only go into the arena in chapter 13, in Catching Fire, we are way into the books when the Quarter Quell is even announced, and Mockingjay is so full of small different plots I can’t even think where to begin.

            Suzanne Collins mastered a craft that many writers strive to achieve. The characters feel real by the actions they follow, even if Katniss’ first point of view became a little repetitious and hard to follow in her despair. Not only has she created a living world with real problems and solutions just as complicated, but she made us think. This is not a story about a girl who pretended to be a bird, not about her choosing a boy to love, it’s about revolution: why has it occurred to the people, what are the risks and the loss, and what are the achievements at the end of the day. And I just happened to notice the form of government they adopted at the end.

            Congratulations on an extremely well written book with more to it than the story. Also, congratulations to the crew that made the audiobook, Catherine McCormick did a fantastic job reading the book and singing the two little but powerful songs.

 

The Hunger Games and Catching Fire

By Suzanne Collins.

 

Two wonderful books I have read in the last days, and if you are a friend of mine on Facebook, then you sure heard about my enthusiasm.  I won’t even begin.

The story is less about Katniss Everdeen and her pain and her doubt and how she struggles with everything, than it is about the world. It’s a modern allegory that I never even hoped I’d read. The political system, the organisation, the Capitol, all are images of what we’ll become if we go on acting like this.

This is the review I made on Goodreads about Catching Fire, since the Hunger Games review isn’t much a review, but rather an exclamation of  awe.

No wonder, this is what I am currently reading: